Maybe it’s the aries in me, but if there’s one thing I struggle to empathize with others on, it’s fear. I can understand and even relate to fear – it’s the inability to move forward when facing fear that bothers me. When did people become chickens? It seems as if society runs from things today – commitment, relationships, sex… love. Especially love. What the heck is so scary about love?! Ok – yes, it has the potential to leave you breathless and in pain… but it also has the ability to help someone soar to new heights! What a thrill!! What an honor!! Oddly – it’s not looked at like that these days tho.
What seems to be my pattern tho… I find and meet people who are on extreme sides of the pendulum swing, but rarely sit squarely in the middle. This past year, I dated a little – or at least attempted to. I was contemplating the past year this morning, when it dawned on me that there’s a pattern to the folks I’ve met that I’ve overlooked. They are either obsessed with love and their own loneliness – to the point where they almost seem to not care WHO they choose to date or love – ugh, no thanks. These men are the wounded birds who are still struggling with their own demons and truly should NOT be dating people yet OR… they are complete and utter chicken shits where the moment things start to get interesting – they turn and flee with their tail between their legs. I’m sorry, but what the literal F?! They’ll say all these lovely things to you, make you feel like you’re special, but when push comes to shove and it’s time to shit or get off the pot – it’s a giant no go.
I’ve come to a very nice conclusion – I’m not patient enough for that shit. I’m just not. And if that’s the game that is dating these days – I’m also just not interested. I barely have time as it is in my day – between my full time job, my side business, my kids, and then trying to maintain the few friendships that mean something to me… Who has time to play games with chicken shit cowards who ultimately just seem to want to play mind games with someone and then move on to play mind games with someone else – all the while – complaining about how hard dating is and how things just aren’t the way they should be. Hmm… suck it up buttercup! Perhaps look at the behaviors you’re putting out there and realize that perhaps you’re partially responsible for your own bad luck?!
I don’t do new years resolutions – but before this morning’s epiphany, I’d have said that one of my goals for the new year is to practice patience… but the more I think about it, maybe that’s where we women have gone wrong. We’ve been practicing patience with these douchey dudes for FAR too long!! I say, maybe 2017 is the year that I embrace my inner aries a bit more. I’ll be patient with my children, with work, and the general public, I’ll practice empathy and understanding with every human being I connect with – however… what I will not do this year – is give empathy and patience to the chicken shits of the world. If you’re scared – fine, I can respect that – even understand and honor that – but if your solution is to do nothing, to change nothing, to remain stagnant in the same place that you say you abhor… then my only response should be to walk away. It’s not my job to force someone to move forward. I’m too busy plowing ahead in my own world!
This year, I have two main focuses that I think I’d like to attempt. One, is my side business. My hope is to build it from a side business, to a full-time business and I’m confident that I’ll achieve that goal. The way I’ve set things up, I know I’ll hit my targets. (Look out LUSH, I’m totally gonna take you on at some point! Hehe) The second goal is involving my love life. It’s time for me to find my person. A partner in crime, a best friend, a lover… I know – weird subject to make it’s way into my goals. I’ve lightly dabbled in going on a few dates last year, but ultimately, kept coming to the realization that perhaps I just wasn’t ready. I didn’t know myself or what I wanted. After taking a good solid year to explore myself and my desires a bit more in depth – I finally feel good. I feel ready. My standards are firmly in place and I feel confident that my person is out there, somewhere. Someone who’ll knock my socks off, and be perfectly at ease with me loving the shit out of them. 🙂 I feel quite hopeful about it all, let’s just hope that sticks around. Hehe.
And to you, my friends in Neverland… I invite you to join me. Stand up for what you deserve! If there’s something you want in your life – reach out and take it!! Find the courage to strike out and do something a little different! We only get this one life, so let’s make the absolute most of it this year! Cheers!!