It is 8 o’clock and I’m going to fall asleep here very soon. I woke up at 5am, left my house at 6am and still didn’t get to work until 8:10am; and it took 2 hours to get home after a full day. It’s weird, I don’t want to go to sleep yet because I feel like I just got home and there’s still some things I’d like to get done, but I can barely keep my eyelids open, so writing in here was my compromise to myself.
It’s Ben’s birthday tomorrow. And I’m not sad or feeling anything heavy about it this year. For a brief moment, I had a twinge of guilt writing that… but it’s ok to move past that heavy, sad stage of grief. At least that’s what I’m telling myself. I’d think it’s actually quite healthy. It HAS been 7 years. I think about him daily. Just a brief thought here and there. I still talk to him often… and when things in life suddenly go my way, I often say “Thank you Ben!” as if some how he had a hand in it.
Today was day 2 of the new job, and so far, I’m absolutely thrilled to be where I am. The people seem passionate and enthusiastic about the company and our product and services. I’m already knee deep in research, with pages and pages of hand-written notes and questions and things to look up or research. My first couple weeks on a job can be pretty intense. I try and dive in to understand as much as I can as quickly as I possibly can so that I can start to be put to better use. It’s a lot of fun for me, but also quite draining. By mid afternoon – my brain decides it’s done and becomes more like mush than anything workable. Hehe.
This weekend I’m going to either attempt to make some homemade lotions, or I’m going to continue to practice at candle making. My last big batch turned out AWESOME! Now I really need to start playing with scents. Figure out the balance of scent to wax that I prefer. I’m enjoying using essential oils. It’s really been a fun hobby to play around with, and my friends will benefit come christmas time, because I’ll certainly be including them with their gifts! 🙂 These are some shots I took from my last 5 batches. 🙂
Well – I need sleep, sorry that this is a bit short tonight. Goodnight neverland! Dream sweet!