An open letter to shitty wives. A response to Matt’s letter.

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If you haven’t read Matt’s Blog, I highly suggest you do.  He’s written a few posts titled “An open letter to a shitty husband, vol XYZ”.  I’ve read through them, and most of what he has on his blog.  It’s been a friend to me in the last 2 years, as I’ve gone through my own divorce and “recovery”.  In that two years, I’ve learned a lot about myself.  I’ve reflected and been honest with myself about what I did right, and what I did wrong.  Matt, this post comes from the opposite perspective of yours.  I hope that mine can do yours justice.

Dear Wife,

You my dear, are positively a pain in the ass shitty wife.  I’m sorry to be so blunt, but there it is.  You can protest and argue and pout all you like, but what I speak is the truth. We wives forget how much control we really have in a relationship.  Funny, how at a young age, we’re taught to look for strong men, riding horses in suits of armor who will take down a dragon, or climb a tall tower in our honor.  We look for men that remind us of our fathers, strong, honorable, loving men.  We’re encouraged to be doting and feminine, to be good with kids, or handy with cooking and cleaning.  And then we’re also taught to be strong and independent, intelligent females.  Perhaps this has left us spinning a bit, but you, my dear, need to understand and take the responsibility for what you bring to the table and how and what you influence in the world around you.

How do I know this?  Perhaps it is because I was one myself.

I loved him.  I stepped up when our family needed me to.  When he wanted the career, I played the housemaker.  I baked, I cleaned, I did everything my grandmother would expect me to do.  Dinner was ready when he walked in the door, a cold beer in the fridge.  When he lost a job, I jumped in and got work, found a career, climbed the ranks.  Paid the bills.

By all outside views, I was a great wife.  And in some ways, yes, I was.  But here’s the thing.  I also wasn’t.  I lost myself when I married him.  I grew to become someone different.  I didn’t go and hang out with friends as often, I didn’t go to a movie or walk the park without expecting him to be there with me.  And when kids were involved, that too became an inner expectation that I had, but failed to communicate to him.  Every let down, every disappointment, I wouldn’t speak up.  And when I did, I was past frustration, to where I’d nag, or pick a fight.  I’d hold high expectations that he would consistently fail at, but I never laid out the requirements.

We, as women, tend to be good at juggling our worlds.  Soccer practice, potty training, pay a bill, doctor visit, make a meal, work a job… we’re superwomen.  But we suck at being wives.  We know the things that make our men light up, and yet, we don’t let them have it.  If our man loves a sport or hobby, why not add it to your schedule to remember to plan around those special games or events that come with them.  Likely, when you met your husband, you had interests.  You had a life outside of him.  I’m betting that the mystery of some of that life is what caught his eye.  Your husband is the same.  He had that interest before he met you, and yet now you expect him to drop it.  To “want” to spend time with you and the kids.  But what is the quality of life like when you ARE spending time together?  Is it nagging?  Doing chores?  The monotonous day to day stuff that can be such a grind?  If you are doing chores, do you make it fun?  I’m betting you forgot.  I’m betting that you got wrapped up in the grind and forgot that that man, he IS trying in his own ways.  They just aren’t YOUR ways.

Of course – I’m not saying that ALL marriages are this way, or that ALL wives are this way.  There are exceptions of COURSE.  If you are in a relationship that has abuse or neglect or infidelity or addiction – Get help and get out.  The end.  No discussion, no argument.  They can’t and won’t change for you.  They have to do it for themselves.  Period.

Can we be honest about double standards?  We expect a lot from our men, whether we communicate it or not, and yet, there are many times, when we break our own rules and standards?  Allow me to give you an example.  We have our routines.  The things we love to get away and do, whether it’s going for a massage, getting our hair done, or doing our nails.  We could be more of an introvert and enjoy writing or reading or painting.  These are things we do to recharge and reboot.  We may not even ask or mention it to our spouses.  But do we remember to work these same kinds of treats into our husband’s world?  I’m betting not. And if they do get a treat, I’m betting it’s not at the same level of consistency that we do for ourselves.

Communication, compromise and equality is what we should be considering.  I’d tell my husband everything, except when I was feeling a bit depressed or sick because I didn’t want him to worry about me.  I spent the last 3 years of my marriage in a strange rut and routine.  I didn’t speak up.  I went silent.  And then I walked away.  I broke him when I did.  I’ve watched him go through his own recovery.  He made a lot of mistakes in our marriage, and he has a lot of responsibility and accountability to take for it all, but I can take accountability for mine.

I work daily now, on always communicating with the people I love.  Even when I’d rather stick my head in the sand.  I work hard now at ensuring that I consider both sides of all of my relationships, not just mine.  It’s amazing how rich my relationships have become because of it.  I give.  I don’t expect in return.  I plan my life, and live my life, looking for and finding my own sense of self and happiness.  I share that with others.  And my influence on my world has grown.  I’ve grown from my divorce, and I wouldn’t take back what I did.  I can now see the impact my influence has on my daughter, on my son.  On my friends and coworkers. Now that I’ve experienced what a healthy relationship is… I also now can see the differences, I know a bit more about what to do moving forward.  I don’t have all the answers.  Hell, I may not have any of the answers.

All I can do is pass on the experience, the knowledge to you, dear wife.  And hope that I can do it in time to really make a difference.

Goodnight Neverland! XXO!

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12 thoughts on “An open letter to shitty wives. A response to Matt’s letter.

  1. inastateofmotion says:

    Very thought provoking, both yours and the posts that prompted it. I, too, have given a lot of thought to what I could have done better with in my ended marriage, especially when I think about the possibility of being in another marriage someday.

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  2. tracyvowles says:

    I’m in no way a perfect wife but I am a much better wife than my spouse is a husband. I am basically a single parent with 3 kids him being one of them. I’ve talked to him till I’m blue in the face. He likes what he likes and isn’t prepared to put himself out in any way shape or form for me or my kids. When I eventually leave and i will, at
    no point will I look back and think that I could have tried harder…He definitely will.

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    • seattlegraphix says:

      Don’t misunderstand. I have been in your shoes.. or at least ones that can relate to where you are at. But it’s only when we get out of bad situations that we can really see the areas where we could have improved as well. Doesn’t mean we should stay in crappy situations – but there’s always a few extra lessons we can learn that help us understand and improve for future relationships.

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    • Francine says:

      I’m in the same boat as Tracyvowles but my marriage is a little more complicated because I have to acknowledged and accept the disease that is trying to kill my marriage which is fibromyalgia. I’ve tried and tried again and now I have to be a selfish wife for a bit because I’ve neglected me and have burned myself out.

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  3. Marcia says:

    Both parties have a responsibility for the health and nurturing in a marriage, but to varying degrees. In Matt’s case, he clearly recognized and admitted that he felt he made huge mistakes, and is trying to make husbands not make the same mistakes. Sure, women need to also take a close look at themselves and their actions, but many husbands are guilty of neglect and taking their wives for granted, not recognizing the need for making their marriage a priority, and need to hear that.

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  4. madamexwebe says:

    Most men are shitty husbands, it’s just a fact. I think your article is stupid. There aren’t any excuses for these dumb apes. We work and do everything including wiping their asses and they wouldn’t be able to survive without a woman because that’s how they’re wired. They need us, they are not strong anywhere else but in their physicality, and that’s it.
    These stupid asses need to go to relationship, girlfriend and marriage school before they ever pop the question, because most of these jack-asses don’t have a clue.
    Just the facts, Jackie’s. Just the facts.

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    • J says:

      Thank you for your comments and feedback. Personally, I think that for every asshole male that is out there, there’s equally a pain in the ass female out there. Male or female.. we are human.

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  5. Tom Pruitt says:

    Dear Madamexwebe and chicks that may apply,
    I am a single male. I love and adore nice Women. I am not attracted to any gender except females . I own my own business , I own my own home , I make my own dinners, I wash my own laundry, I have lots of friends and we have a great time , I have dinner party’s at my home. I travel a lot abroad. I am free of any drama . I am very happy . When I want a woman’s company I can get it. I do not and repeat do not need or feel I must have uncontrollably have a woman at all. So a response to the statement you made about men are mentally and emotionally incapable of Surviving without a female is so naive . There are many men that can get along without spending every waking moment with a female …….!!

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